Wednesday, November 19, 2014

My heart is so tired.


BCP. NTNP. TTC. DPO. TWW. CD1. TTTC. IUI. IVF. PUPO. KU.

     So many abbreviations. First you go off your Birth Control Pill. Then comes Not Trying Not Preventing. Then comes Trying To Conceive. You ovulate and now it's Days Post Ovulation. Then the Two Week Wait. Then Cycle Day 1. After a year you move on to Trouble Trying To Conceive. Then there's the IntraUterine Insemination. When that doesn't work, and if you have the money and your cycle doesn't get cancelled, it's on to In Vitro Fertilization. If you're lucky enough to be part of the 46%, then you're Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise. You might even get to be Knocked Up.

The acronym I never thought would apply to me:
CFNBC
child free, not by choice

I'll admit it.
When friends have told me that they were 'taking a break', accepting their childless status for the time being, I judged.
I thought to myself, "You're giving up? Really? I couldn't do that until I'd tried everything first."
I finally get it. I really do.
You can only subject your heart to so much.
So I guess for the time being this blog will simply be our lives, day to day.
Because that's what you do; you live.
One day at a time.




"We need never be ashamed of our tears."
Charles Dickens